It's strange.
I think I arrange other's music better than I do my own. There's something about their music that inspires me to arrange with results of certain satisfaction.
My music fails to inspire myself.
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I also envy people who can write simple yet effective and uncliched and memorable tunes
"Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?" --- angry composer to himself. (Avril Lavigne and I have the same initials: AL. Wah I'm a classical-musical-theatre-and-a-bit-of-jazz-rocker!)